June 15, 2025
Another round of confessions. There are only four replies I didn’t include. The first was someone requesting the deletion of their confession due to concerns of identification. Obviously, so I do not cause more unnecessary worry, I didn’t include the confession verbatim. However, I will make it clear that I will not be deleting any confession unless a moderator requests so of me privately when a case is particularly troublesome. Just like anything else on the Internet, think carefully of what you’re submitting.
The second and third were just generically hate-filled comments that wouldn’t have been productive. The fourth was conducive to forming a reply chain which I specifically want to avoid. I’ll only include “reply confessions” on a case per case basis because I don’t want to be your proxy for what could be told in a DM privately with the person.
BTW, if you like how I respond and you want my advice or opinions on things but don’t want to send in a confession due to fears of identification, you can always DM me, either here or on the other platforms I’m on. I will keep everything you tell me private, unless you’re about to harm someone else. Just be careful when you send in something so you don’t accidentally get yourself identified because I won’t be removing shit unless the mods ask me to. Let’s carry on.
Normal
Trying my best to help this place. So hard. I’ve tried so hard even to the point that my partner has to tell me to stop and slow down. I just want everyone to be okay, i just want my friends to be okay. I can’t stop trying, to stop trying is to be consumed instantly. It feels like nothing i do matters, like people will see me like a bad guy even if i try everyday to help and make people laugh and smile when all they see around them is an absence of a future. I feel like i do a bad job, friends. I’m sorry i can’t stop the pain or drama.
It’s like being a candle in a storm, so fragile and so frail. It hurts so much to see other lights go out or flicker in agony, it’s a pain that i’m not sure i can articulate. It’s not pain in the sense that it’s physical pain. It’s this torturous feeling in your mind that rips you a little on the inside because you know exactly how it feels.
I just want everyone to be okay, i couldn’t care less what happens to me.
As long as they are all okay.
I love this community but I find the amount of gay and trans users vs straight ratio to be kinda hilarious. Don’t have a problem with it of course but some days I feel like that bit off the Simpsons where Homer is the only man in the Lesbian bar with no fire exits.
IMO, over the years, Knockout has turned into a gaming and queer community. That’s actually how I described it to a few outsiders now. It could very well start styling itself as one if it doesn’t already. While there are no official statistics on the exact ratio of gay and trans users to straight users on Knockout, it’s generally observed by its user base that the LGBTQ+ demographic is significantly represented, often leading to the impression of it being a prominent queer-friendly space.
I’m seeking disability benefits in the US and it has been a bitch. My final chance judge hearing is in a month and if that don’t work then I probably won’t get it. Thing is, I have started to doubt my disability because my doctors keep saying that I could still work. Im seeking disability based on my stress induced seizures I deal with, but I also struggle with depression, anxiety, ADHD, and being somewhere on the autistic spectrum that hasn’t been determined because fucking US medical services. Sometimes I just wonder if I should try working though I also have to wonder if it’s normal to want to kill yourself after each workday and texting suicide hotline on a weekly basis to just get through the work week.
Being able to work doesn’t mean you’re not disabled. There are people who most would consider disabled but can definitely do some work, like some people with schizophrenia. Even if they could still do some work, they are still eligible for disability benefits, at least in the few cases that I’m personally aware of in the US. There are also people I know who are physically disabled that did not take physical stagnation for an answer and committed to some more active body-involved work as well, even though it’s a bit limited. Otherwise, the cocktail of depression, anxiety, autism and/or ADHD could very well make you eligible for benefits even without the seizures. However, I know that knowing most of this doesn’t matter unless you can access a doctor that is willing to work with you. The US doesn’t make it easy unless you have access to money or a really good insurance policy (which is usually mediated by access to money).
That said, it definitely ain’t normal to wish to kill yourself, that much is sure. Considering that you have stress-induced seizures, this is definitely the stress talking. It’s a lot of bad news, but the good news is that stress can be mitigated, and hopefully all those nasty ideas with it. Obviously, resolving your medical problems would take a lot off, but stress reduction can be applied piecemeal throughout your day so you’re not on the blunt end of it. Even all the dumb exercises we were (were we? I’m unsure if everyone goes through the same teaching here) told in school to mitigate stress can be of some benefit. I’m badly placed to give you advice on how here because I’m rarely stressed, usually only about business stuff, but light exercise like walking has helped me a lot when it happened. Definitely something google-able. Wish you the best.
Update knockster please <3
Yeah, I’ll be working on it soon. I want to revisit how I do some stuff because some of it is very cheap and clunky. I haven’t forgotten about it, don’t worry.
I’ve posted at least 3 undetected Peters in the Peter Griffin thread.
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Years ago, I had a modicum of success, but I got there too fast for me to get used to it. It caused my abuser, whose abuse I was fooled into believe was my own doing towards her, came back. I still had an unhealthy attachment to her, so I let her back in my life. The stress due to both being a public figure, being unknowingly abused and being tricked into believing I was an abuser was too much for me to manage. One day, I found out she’s trying to flirt with a freshman (she was 20), and upon realizing I was going to put a stop to her, she falsely accused me of pedophilia in retaliation and asked a group of friends to accuse me on her behalf. The realization that I was being abused for three years, several death threats in my DMs, being unable to do what I liked doing without being harassed, all simultaneously happening. I’m still scarred from this, and I fear people who recognize me from my past and think I’m everything she accused me of, being stopped to make stuff that brings me joy.
Addendum. A few years after the matter, my abuser somehow inexplicably managed to find the username I went by, forcing me to hide again as she had significantly more followers on her accounts, while pretty much anyone I’ve met from that small fame believed her bullshit and unceremoniously ditched me, some of my closest best friends switching to her side out of spite against me. Because of this, I’ve grown to be paranoid around other people online, which makes it unnecessarily difficult for me to open up to anyone or to put out anything. Every post I’ve made on here turned into a trial of overcoming my paranoia, and I fear someone might spot me by connecting the tiniest dots back to my past. It’s been years, and I’m still paranoid about it, and it’s still stopping me from doing things I enjoy and sharing them with the world. It fucking sucks, and I hate pushing away everyone who wants to offer me help because I fear the fact that they might know who I used to be.
You simply have to keep moving. Years ago, I held myself from doing certain things because I’ve had nasty experiences, some of which were caused by other people, some of which were caused by me. Every time I did these things, it reminded me of those nasty experiences, and I would avoid them. There’s even a song that I used to like that I’ve come to associate with one of those bad moments, and for so long, I’ve avoided it and skipped it whenever it came up on my playlist.
However, I came to realize one day that avoiding these things or remaining in fear of them is to let those past moments hold dominion over our present. We have the impression that they control us, but they don’t. We let them have this control, even if it feels innate and not that controllable. It can be difficult to admit this, because it was all started by something outside of us and we don’t want to put the responsibility of repair on our shoulders, but how we feel towards our memories is something we decide for ourselves. We perpetuate these bad feelings like keeping a strong grip on a hot iron rod.
In your case, you don’t make stuff that brings you joy because you don’t want the fear and worry that comes from it. But, I would recommend that you do so anyway, even if you don’t feel any joy from it at first. At first, so you can tell yourself, “I won’t let people and bad memories from the past dictate what I do now”. This contributes to the development of your willpower, which will be useful elsewhere too. It’s such a strong demonstration of moving over. Then, it’s so you can expose yourself to the fear and worry as much as possible, until it disappears. Much like holding a spider when you’re afraid of them, and eventually you care less. In time, you will also develop the strength to talk about the matter overtly to others, which will absolve you of all the hurt it did.
Seek the day where you can tell others “She accused me of this and that, screw her!”, that is when you will be and feel better. No longer have to be paranoid about discovery when you’re out and open with it. Good luck.
I haven’t voted in a US election since 2016. I live in an area where my voting district is solid blue. It’s not at risk of flipping red, so I decided that I can safely avoid voting here…especially since the Democrats really aren’t doing anything to actually earn my vote. They’re looking at the rise of GOP fascism and refusing to stand up for it. They simply don’t care. They refuse to adapt. So I see no reason why I should be another vote in a district that won’t flip for a party that won’t fight for us.
I feel totally deflated and lost in life these days. I’m a few years out of college and work an office job, I used to see friends a couple times a month. At the end of last summer I just kinda gave up subconsciously I guess, I don’t really hear from or hang out with anyone anymore. Last time I saw friends was around Christmas. At work I have no main project anymore so things are boring, and there aren’t any internal job postings, so I can’t just switch to a different department or whatever. On top of all that I still live with my parents (at 25), I thought of it as saving money at first but now I’m over it. Honestly I’m on the lazy river right now, not in any debt, relationships or excitement, just letting the days go by sitting around going nowhere fast.
So, how do I get out of the hole?
Make things to look forward to. It can be literally anything. Open up your calendar and, in a couple days, write in a walk. Or a trip shopping somewhere. Or maybe cooking something. Or visiting a new place. As long you have something coming and you feel it coming, that will help.
I’ve observed that a lot of people feel stagnating because they have nothing that’s coming. It’s not necessarily a problem of doing nothing right now, but rather that they don’t see an end to all that nothing. I’ve told this to a friend who felt exactly what you’re feeling, and he decided to do a trip somewhere as a way to break out of it, fully knowing that he would return to his stagnation afterwards. That trip alone, which was simply traveling to the other side of the country by plane and checking out a few landmarks, was enough to make him feel incredibly better.
For me personally, I’ve felt somewhat the same a long time ago, but I fixed it by going to church again. Going to church and seeking responsibilities there added schedule to my life, and the connections made there kept me socializing and moving. I know not many people here are religious so this may fall on deaf ears, but I’m sure there are alternatives that you could seek out. A month ago, someone made this thread about third places. Maybe that can give you inspiration.
you can choose to leave this out the post if you want but i need to tell someone i was talking to this guy on an app and he asked to go to telegram and i said no and he said if we did he could send me stuff and before i could even ask what he meant he sent screenshots of albums of cp i saw maybe 20 pics before i could get him deleted. i felt sick and i cant get it out of my head. the part i can hardly admit is a couple of them had an effect on me. i keep thinking of them too. that guy turned me into a monster.
First off, you’re not a monster. Remember that it is our actions that define who we are and not our thoughts. There is no greater indication of this than reading a few pages of /r/OCD. So many people worry about being X/Y/Z because they’ve thought something or saw something and it stuck with them forever. Fortunately, that’s not what defines who you are. Contrary to popular knowledge, we often are our thoughts, but we poorly understand them.
Seeing bad and disgusting things and them being stuck in your head doesn’t mean anything. In fact, we’re most likely to have stuck thoughts over images and ideas that we dislike than the contrary. I’ve known someone who couldn’t stop imagining themselves self-harming, and thought it was an indication that they eventually would/want to self-harm, but they never did and figured out in the end that it was just an intrusive thought. When they stopped worrying about it, the thought disappeared. The same extends to pretty much everything else, like gore, shock content, scary videos, or in your case, bad pornography.
In your case, you simply have to observe it for what it is: you’ve seen something terrible, and because you remind yourself of its terribleness, it’s stuck with you. Like the person’s obsession with self-harming, you may think that it’s because of some inner desire, but because you obviously identify it as wrong, it’s not. First, feel better that you’re not a monster and you’re just being subject to intrusive thoughts. Second, just let it flow in and out of you, and the less you worry about its terribleness and let the images pass, the less you’ll think about it and in time, it will be gone.
I’m not sure what to say here, I’ve not got many problems. Any problem I do have would be too revealing of who I am, so I’m not going to say much.
All I have to say is that I miss Waut3r, that reveals me somewhat already, but his posts were always funny. I also missing having another Ween fan on the forums.
Oh, and I really hate people who never use the forum besides complaining in Meta, please post something cooler or more fun! Stop being a fucking stick in the mud and go into fast threads and make some dumb bullshit for fun!
I agree. You can definitely have opinions as to how the site is ran without contributing, but they would definitely have more weight if you were contributing.
So when I left my old job a few yesrs ago I kinds set the bridge alight. Good team and colleagues (though some were lazy) but shit management and company. Being paid less than 20k a year for a role that I was promised would get me a rise to 35k. 2 weeks after I left they told everyone no pay rise
I left for a job that paid 45k and I’m still there now making nearly 50k a year so I’m good
The part to confess: before I left, I used my knowledge of the company procurement process to order myself some gear. Got myself a £70 mouse, USB-C dock, and 144hz monitor out of it (came the week after my last day). All got mindlessly approved by the Indian procurement people. I also sent a 100 person distribution mail outing my old shit manager for her abusive behaviour and may have been unofficially fired that last day for other shenanigans… but no real consequence
I only wish I ordered myself a Zbook while I was at it… they DID short me on money before
Just to add to the above around ordering some free gear before I left my old company, they did try to invoice me for the monitor saying I ordered it without the manager’s approval… I just said “YOUR PROCUREMENT TEAM APPROVED THIS, COLLECT IT NOW OR I CLAIM STORAGE COSTS” and pointed to an email I’d made attempting to return it to them (knowing they were too incompetent to do so)
So yeah, fuck that place hard. I only wish I’d abused the process a little more to get some free shit for all the stress and suffering they caused me
If you want to know how shit my manager was, I got told to focus on my performance over my pay, and berated for not telling her I was moving roles… “it would have been the grown up, professional thing to do”
Occasionally I still log into the phone system on a burner using their PIN and divert the on call out of hours number to some random telemarketer number just out of spite… always makes me chuckle
I habitually steal shopping bags. Not like hamdbags or anything, but plastic bags, bags for life… I walk out with them. They all get reused… I use them for carrying the washing out to the line, moving stuff etc
…those aren’t free? They’re free here. Maybe it’s not the same everywhere.
When nobody is around I torment the cats. Nothing cruel, just chase them around the house and get into swat fights with them. This is fair game cos they knead on me with their claws and wake me up at 4am when I’ve had no sleep. We have a mutual understanding that nobody appreciates
My wife things when I call our cream cat a wretched cretinous dickhead she thinks I’m being cruel but that’s our thing. I insult him, he annoys me, we get on pretty well
My old neighbour made a bullshit report to the cops and city that I was stalking and harassing her… for mowing the grass outside her bedroom window, the grass I owned. She lives in a 1 floor house btw. Yelled at me through thr window that I made her dog bark then would slam it shut whenever I tried to talk to her nicely.
Went to the cops saying I was watching her get changed… police and lawyer both knew it was bullshit but I still had to be interviewed… no further action, and I pointed out why would you get changed in a front facing window with the curtains open on a route where schoolkids walk.
I’ve moved now, but the day we left I may have dropped some wet paper towels on her back roof where she can’t see that are probably glued there now.. I also make a point whenever I’m walking that area at night (still nearby) of walking past the house where her windows are open and blasting Sabaton full volume. Thats what you get for being shitty.
i feel like i’m spending my time sitting around waiting for my life to start. i have no actual friends in real life, just people i talk to because i’m forced to be in the same space as them. i have them added on whatsapp and i act friendly with them but i only ever talk with them when i need to. i have no idea what i’m doing wrong. i’m just struggling to find a job and make some fucking friends while i’m at it. i’m scared that my life will never go anywhere and i’ll waste it all playing video games and doomscrolling online wishing i had a girlfriend or smth
Find yourself a responsibility. There are things you can do that aren’t necessarily jobs. If you are religious (or do not care about the religious aspect of it), ask a local church if they need help, in most cases they do. If you don’t want to, you could always look at other charitable entities or non-profits in your area. Adding something regular to your schedule and making sure you fulfill that responsibility will have you do something productive with your time, and that can build up a stronger relationship with your community and also new friends.
Maybe it’s just the current political climate, but I have a hard time trying to actually interact with people on the internet. It feels like everyone is constantly looking for little signs that you’re one of the “others” and misinterprets almost everything I put out there. I’ve had too many otherwise normal conversations turn into stupid arguments because someone assumed that my post had ill intent and didn’t actually understand what I was saying. It’s like reading comprehension was replaced with cynicism and emotional volatility.
No, you’re completely right. This is something some people here and elsewhere have identified too. There is a strong callout culture that began in the mid-2010s and is currently reaching critical levels, making honest and open communication difficult. Even those who are aligned politically, socially, and whatnot will face obstacles in simply talking due to this. It’s not exclusively due to politics even though they’ve been a big contributing factor, it’s just because the Internet isn’t conducive to accountability, and therefore some of us replaced our need for accountability with vigilante pseudo-judicidal callouts.
I’ve known people who, when they’ve faced a difficulty in talking with somebody online, were quick to analyze and borderline dox the people they are talking with to find “signs” that they were someone bad, to either justify exiting from the discussion or to call them out in some way. All because people no longer take exiting from a discussion an option, especially since unlike in the real world, no longer talking is seen as giving up (instead of, you know, a mature withdrawal from a bad discussion) and it’s embed in the permanent record. This is not producing of a sane environment, on Knockout or anywhere else. However, people aren’t quick to acknowledge this is bad because for most, a “sane” environment is one empty of people they find “bad”, and to make sure everyone sees them as bad too, they will do this.
I hate how much the queer community has become synonymous with overt sexualized interaction. (I am very queer myself)
Anyone who is uncomfortable with it gets labeled a prude unless they are willing to air their trauma behind it. If you don’t have any but are just uncomfortable you are ostracized. Even then if it isn’t the “right” kind of trauma you just get dismissed. Or in some cases mocked. (I have trauma around it, but I get told it isn’t “real” :/ )
I just wish people would take a moment to consider that who they are saying innuendos or flirting at may be uncomfortable with it. Or that they don’t want to listen to constant tales of your raunchy escapades. And just be open with that idea of other queer people not being sexual. I either get too scared to join them because my boundaries get broken or get “suggested” that I leave because I dared airing my discomfort. It makes me want to go back to hiding under my bed.
I bet most of the responses will be “lmao that is a you issue”.
I think this is half-and-half. There is still the general expectation that NSFW/sexually overt content will be separated away from less sensitive, average discussion. However, it is true the trend is changing. In a way, I see it as a kind of rebound from having their sexual expression repressed for so long. Now that they’re (mostly) able to express it, it’s expressed a lot and takes a big part in pride. It makes sense and it’s understandable, but at the same time, it’s also understandable that some will be discomforted by it. This is why there must be a strong and visible delineation between sensitive and non-sensitive content in overall society, both online and offline.
However, the responses shouldn’t be that it’s a “you issue”. There are people part of the queer community that very much identifies with low or none sexual activity, like those who are asexual. I’ve seen these people accommodated, and no one tells them it’s a “them issue”. I’m unsure why that respect wouldn’t extend to you as well. I wouldn’t worry about it.
how bad is it that instead of fantasising about normal stuff like sex with hot people or raising a family with a loving wife, i often tend to gravitate towards the same scenario of “be put into such a stressful situation that it causes me to have a really bad panic attack next to a friend and have them comfort me as i sob against their shoulder”
if i had to guess its because i was raised to take the bad things in life like a man and my head is just tired of trying to be stoic but i feel that fantasising about this stuff still isnt healthy
I’ve sometimes had the same too. It’s about recognition, or the lack thereof. We go through difficult and harsh things in life, and men are usually shown little sympathy due to the patriarchy and the expectations that come with. We get taught, explicitly or otherwise, that we can only talk of these feelings to women. In fact, yesterday (as of June 9 which is when I wrote your reply), I went out to dine with a friend working in construction and he told me the same. He goes through hard things in his life and he’s unable to communicate this to other men because it feels “wrong”, and because he has no women in his life, he’s just unable to share those feelings.
So, in a way, we want to have these feelings recognized, and our efforts and/or hardships sympathized with. Because we lack this, we fantasize about coming back home and being comforted. We have that desire to externalize what we feel, but we can’t. This is why you think of these things. However, that doesn’t mean you cannot be stoic. You can certainly be stoic most of the time, and then have some time to properly categorize and emotionally process what you’re going through. Stoicism overall is great and I try to practice it as much as possible, but that doesn’t mean I can’t sit down and let me process what I feel.
I genuinely dislike my job’s increasing workload and stress, especially as more and more coworkers make plans to leave (or do) for better paying areas but I’m trapped, stuck paying off debts until the end of the year or longer.
Similar to the other confessor who wanted to share spicy art but wanted to do it on an alt and not connected to my main. Also I want to make a spicy party board game and I feel like I could use some suggestions/feedback from others but that kind of makes it hard to actually reach out to people.
You know, this made me think. I wonder if the forum could have the option to post something anonymously (with a registered account), where only the moderators can see who’s posting what, and maybe only applicable in an hypothetical NSFW section or something. Since the forum seems surprisingly skeptic of its moderation team, this could raise doubts, but it could be a way for people to more safely post content they consider spicy.
IMO no methods should be off the table when it comes to opposing fascists. Deliberately limiting your methods because fascists use them is akin to not drinking water because fascists also drink water.
It’s the whole “being rational with the irrational” conundrum. Liberalism is based on acting rationally entirely upon the assumption that everyone else will be acting rationally as well (“rationally” as in in accordance with the rules and regulations of the system). However, it fails when you face people who act irrationally, as in who work outside of the rules and regulations. If you face an opponent that works outside of the rules of the political system, then binding yourself to these rules will simply limit how you can tackle your opponent.
There are just way too many snowflakes on Knockout who would just delete their years old account over the most minor of shit. Grow a goddamn spine, how the hell did they survive the early era of the internet where flaming was the norm and not the exception?
TBH, what must also be noted is that deleting your account doesn’t really do anything meaningful. Assuming you’re deleting your account because you don’t want your name(s) tied to what you’ve said (which is another case of “think before you post”), all that it takes is an archived page or a screenshot to re-tie your name to your posts again. I think it’s really best if people accept what they’ve said and move on. Alternatively, an option to delete posts could be provided, and logic added so quotes elsewhere in the thread tied to that post are censored too (maybe).
I’m tired, boss. Tired of being on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. I’m tired of never having me a buddy to be with to tell me where we’s going to, coming from, or why. Mostly, I’m tired of people being ugly to each other. I’m tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world…every day. There’s too much of it. It’s like pieces of glass in my head…all the time. Can you understand?
The Green Mile was a good movie. Thank you for reminding me of it.
Can I just fall asleep and not wake up? I’ve been feeling good the past few months, but right now I just feel like a shell. I try my best not to bombard myself with information, but I can’t feel excited about anything. Even when I’m on the cusp of actually doing something with my life, I feel nothing. Sex means nothing, food is tasteless, music is just noise. I don’t have any desire to do anything, not even to attempt suicide. I just want to sleep. I might as well already be asleep.
You have to add movement to your life. There’s a difference between looking at life and living it. When you look at life for too long, everything feels stagnant and it becomes hard to enjoy it. Add movement even if you don’t feel like it. Sink yourself in it even if it doesn’t feel good in the movement. Keep yourself distracted and moving.
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this is a gift, enjoy
here’s another gift lmfao
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small frustration on how one kink thread became 3, (and then one died off not being used) obviously kinks have many many subkinks that not everyone is into, but making a whole new thread without asking anyone else because one person found it hard to look and post at the things they liked, instead we get fractured threads and confusion on what goes where and both threads get less traffic.
All the more reason to have a distinct NSFW subsection. Distinct kink threads in its own subsection would look better than if they are cohabiting with normal threads.
I’m pretty convinced that I’ll never make it to 30. I burnt out of college despite starting courses at 15, I let folks take financial advantage of me which left me nearly bankrupt, and my family turned its back on me. I have wonderful, caring friends and a beautiful partner, but I struggle to support them since I can only find manual labor jobs, none of which pay well enough to afford anything beyond roommate filled apartments.
I love them all dearly, but I’m reaching the end of my rope. I can’t find a better job, nor the job that I wanted. I can’t afford to go back to school to find that better job. With the United States in outright collapse, my bank account having yet to climb over $2k in nearly 5 years, and with no skills/degrees to help get me and my loved ones out, I’m at a loss as to what to do. Suicide would hurt my friends and loved ones, but I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
Often, we think we’re at the end of everything because we believe ourselves to be so intelligent that we can even predict the future. We peer a bit into our imaginary coming days and months and years and believe it. The truth, however, is that we are stupid, and we don’t know everything, especially not what’s coming tomorrow, or in a week, or in a year. I didn’t think I’d ever touch a bird, and it made me very sad that I’d probably never do, but then one sat on my windowsill on a rainy day and I got it to sit on my finger by putting some black sunflower seeds in the palm of my hand for it to feed. This taught me that I’m stupid and I don’t know everything that’s gonna happen, ever.
When you recognize that the future has yet to come, and that you don’t know what’s coming, and you grow more curious about what’s in store, then you will feel better. I suggested to someone above that they start chartering things to do, even if they’re nothingburger minor things like going to eat out or talking a walk. Having something to look towards it, and creating for yourself that sense of commitment that you have to do it, will also help a lot. Trust me on that one. In time, you will be given what you need to fully live out your life.
I feel I am facing accusations or implications that I am complicit in a genocide, whether it is on the internet, in the city I live in, or from friends I once had. This has been extreme deleterious to my mental health. It’s completely strained my relationship with my family.
I can’t provide you my personal opinion cuz I don’t know what you’re referring to exactly, as there are unfortunately so much killing already. However, you are not killing people. That much I can tell you.
I’ve spent a year and a half in community college and I’m still 4 semesters away from getting my associates. I’ve changed my degree 20+ times (lost count at this point, to be honest), and am currently settling on Computer Science. I’m scared of committing to a degree and taking classes that I might fail, specifically math classes. I’m aware that CS is math-heavy but this time around it FEELS like something I actually want to do. Next semester is coming up and I have a constant looming dread that I’ll drop the classes because I’m afraid of failing and losing money. I feel I can’t keep living with my parents forever, and I really want to get out of the situation I’m currently in, but I want to at least have a chance at a decent-paying job before I do that, so that I never have to go back to this place ever again. Sorry if this sounds over-dramatic/makes no sense, I have a tendency of doing that.
The prospect of failing should never prevent you from trying. You can either try and maybe fail, or not try and fail immediately. Only one situation involves the possibility of success. Choose.
It’s good to feel motivated to do something for once and for all so you never have to go back. This is not over dramatic or nonsense, it’s a perfectly fine and acceptable motivation.
ko’ers be unironically citing horseshoe theory as having merit and it comes across as mad reactionary in a way i would ban if i ran a politically charged lefty forum
Lol I’ve always seen the horseshoe theory as a big meme. Most people who believe in the horseshoe misinterpret similarity in authoritarianism as similarity of political extremes.
I think I’m catching feelings for a neighbor who lives in the same apartment complex. I’ve been thinking about her a lot and I look for any excuse I can get just to talk with her. We even recently exchanged phone numbers though I haven’t called or texted her yet. (The number exchange was if she gets a package delivered while she’s at work and I could hold on to it due to package thieves.)
The problem is she’s around 8 years older than me and she is also Muslim so I don’t know if there could be a religious conflict in the way of a relationship. (I’m non-religious)
I’m also worried that if I do end up asking her out and she says no it could makes things awkward between us.
First, personally, I’d avoid talking to her through her phone number until it makes sense to. It wouldn’t be the end of the world if you did, but you could maybe ease into it by continuing a conversation that you had IRL onto there. That way you could gauge the degree of comfort she has in talking virtually.
Second, a religion’s rules may not always prevent a relationship from forming, but it could make life harder later on. One of the largest causes of break-ups (and overall tension between people I may add) is religious difference. You can be perfectly tolerant of other religions and their practices, but this won’t prevent an argument. It won’t ease her anxiety that she may not see you in heaven. It’ll make marriage more difficult, even though not impossible. Lots of things to consider.
You should befriend her first! If you don’t get a girlfriend, you’ll at least have a friend. If that causes envy or jealousy, then work on it. If you hit a wall in how close you can get to her, then don’t bash your head against the wall. Wait by the window and you will be given what is dispensed from it, content yourself with it, and perhaps in time, the door may open to you.
I still think the mods’ decision on Hogwarts Legacy was wrong.
I had noticed for a while that threads on the forum had a tendency to devolve into offtopic arguments, and Harry Potter threads tended to devolve into JK Rowling shitflinging, but it really ramped up once that game was nearing release. The offtopic tangents completely consumed any discussion about the game itself and attempts to actually discuss the game in the Gaming subforum got shut down. It infuriated me that the mods decided to side with the offtopic tangent rather than create a “JK Rowling’s actions” thread and a “Hogwarts Legacy thread” to actually discuss the art in question. If people can’t stay on-topic then MUTE THEM.
All it told me is there’s some topics the forum will never be capable of discussing. I satisfied my curiosity about that game via 4chan, and would’ve loved to discuss how the game itself is awful (because it is), but nope! Can’t do that on my home forum cause people can’t goddamn behave!
Knockout’s greatest problem is its predisposition to arguments. We as a forum care a bunch about what should be posted and what shouldn’t be, but the attention we give to this issue creates a lot of tension in spaces that don’t really need it. I haven’t really seen the JK Rowling shitflinging or the Hogwarts Legacy stuff because I didn’t pay much attention to it, and while it should be expected the issue should be brought up when you talk about anything related to Harry Potter… it is true that any long-lasting argument should be given its own space elsewhere if its matter can be separated from the subject.
Sometimes I deliberately enter political threads and not post, only to get myself mad. I think I like just arguing with people, or just talking so much that arguing is fun to me. I dont want peace, I want problems always.
I’m sure it’s an adrenaline thing. Ever think in the shower about how you could have said such and such thing during some conflict and how satisfactory it would have been at that time if you just have said these things? What you’re feeling sounds pretty similar to that.
I genuinely despise Generative AI and everyone who uses it. Like I have a deep anger and disgust when I recognise a GPT created sentence. People need to be shamed harder for trying to pass this shit off as good.
It can’t replace artists or writers no matter how much slop the bigoted techbro checkmarks put out. The kind of person to use these tools uncritically are fundamentally incurious, wasteful and uninterested in building true skills.
1000 chrs isn’t enough to fully write out just how fucking burning mad I am at the people abusing this technology for profit and harm.
Vibes based moderation should happen more often because some people will not outwardly break rules but just kind of bring down any thread they participate in
I agree. We oughta balance the word of the law and the spirit of the law, even though I understand it’s not that easy to pull off. Prophylactic moderation should absolutely be more of a thing, but again I know that’s not easy either.
I was scrolling Reddit when I saw a post about some fireworks, which brought to mind a memory from 2022 new year’s eve. We were watching fireworks outside with a bunch of friends, and the moment the year shifted into 2023 the girl I had a really strong crush on grabbed me and went in for a kiss. Since we were both really quite drunk, she kinda misjudged her momentum and accidentally slammed her front teeth into my lip which got quite a bad cut on it that took a couple of weeks to heal up.
To this day, it’s still the most romantic thing anyone’s ever done for me. We’re not together anymore - out of any of my relationships, the one with her was the shortest and felt the least like proper dating, yet I can’t help but to feel really bittersweet any time new year’s shows up again and makes me think of that moment.
Our best memories are often born from spontaneity. If we spent a lot of time preparing for something, the memories made from it will feel less acute, good or bad. Hold onto it strong even if it’s bittersweet because they can be a guiding light when we feel bad about ourselves.
The influx of all the crap off sites like temu has accidentally made me racist again the Chinese. I caught myself having actual disdain for the country and thinking it’s people are lesser during a moment of “fucking Chinese junk what else do you expect” in regards to something that was just destined for the landfill immediately.
I’m trying to work on this.
Like I told someone else that also complained of their own racism in a discussion, the first step is always recognizing that it’s a problem. It’s when we rationalize the racism that it becomes bad. Sounds like you’re already on your way however, so I wouldn’t worry about it. Keep working on it.
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I work at Google and make over $200k/year. I hate it, but complaining makes me feel ungrateful and spoiled since I know how lucky I am.
Google is not a company that I ever would have applied to work for, but years ago when my employer got bought by them it was a choice between a $40k raise and finding another job as an early-transition trans woman. I told myself I’d leave once I got more comfortable with myself and once I had at least a year there to put on my resume. Flash forward to now and I’m still there.
I hate everything that Google stands for, I hate the impact it’s had on society, and I hate feeling complicit in that, but I am terrified of leaving. I’m still afraid of looking for another job as a trans woman, especially with Trump in office, and combined with other trauma it leaves me feeling paralyzed. I try to offset that feeling by doing mutual aid and giving leftists and gay people money (pls link GoFundMe/Venmo if you need aid, not joking).
Sent from the office.
“No good deed is unrewarded, and so every good deed merits some good” as Saint Thomas Aquinas excellently put it. If you pursue your good acts of charity, then you will eventually see it returned to you. It is often said that the best gift to give is the one we don’t have, so while your circumstances may suck, you can always give somebody else better circumstances.
You could start looking into other work, but do it as you’re working for Google, so that if you can’t land another job, you won’t be unemployed. Only move away from Google once you have your new job locked in. That’s also something you can mention to your (prospective) new employer, they could give you some more time to finish what you have at Google. I wish you good luck on this, job market’s a bit skewed right now.
I think I might be slightly autistic, but I’m not sure about getting fully checked out about it. I’ve had a number of other autistic people tell me in the past couple years that a lot of my behavior and ticks are signs of it. I never really attributed it to autism before, just assuming that I really was “a weird one” as people have been telling me all my life. I’m hesitant to talk to a doctor about it because A) I’m not sure how family & friends would react if it turns out I am or B) If it turns out I’m not and I have no real explanation as to why I am the way I am. If it’s true, it’s definitely mild enough for most people to not really notice so I’m not even sure it’s worth the trouble in that regard; there are people out there that legitimately can use help with the condition and I’m definitely not one of them so what would it even change to know for sure?
I had a friend who presented physical symptoms of autism like hand-flapping. He thought for years that he was autistic, but couldn’t get diagnosed due to parents that cared very little. As an adult, he eventually sought a professional diagnosis and they figured out that he simply had a particularly severe case of ADHD. Apparently, ADD/ADHD can sometimes share symptoms both mental and physical with autism. He received medication for it, which didn’t get rid of the physical symptoms but greatly helped out with his mind.
Therefore, if you’re not diagnosed as autistic, then don’t worry. Autism is a spectrum and there is significant overlap with a lot of other diagnoses. For instance, a 2014 study published in the journal Pediatrics found that up to 50% of children with ADHD also meet the diagnostic criteria for Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD). Conversely, 30-50% of individuals with ASD also have ADHD symptoms. This considerable overlap makes differential diagnosis challenging.
I’d go investigate that with a doctor to obtain a diagnosis for my own certainty, and then I’d tell people whom I’d trust. You don’t have to tell your family if you don’t feel like it. It’s not life-threatening and altering of your circumstances, so you don’t owe them that explanation.
My friend with whom I am in love with.. I wish I could swap voicemails with them, call them and play games together with them, but all we do is text. Our feelings are mutual, and yet I feel alone, knowing the one person I’d kill to do things with is either too tired or too busy to do anything together. They say that the reason for this is that they’re emotionally unavailable. I’ve promised to wait for the day that they feel better, but loneliness is eating me from the inside.
First, patience. We live in a very impatient world, and people who are capable of timing and waiting are less and less there. You’re making the world better by working on your patience, so keep at it.
Second, sometimes, you have to think as if you were the person to better understand what you yourself are doing. “If I were emotionally unavailable, wouldn’t it be good to have somebody who patiently waited for me, and still texted me despite it all?”. Armed with the knowledge that it is an absolute good to be the one to provide this, pursue it. It hurts, and it may hurt even more if it doesn’t amount to anything, but that’s not time or effort wasted. You spent it doing good and you are therefore unimpeachable.
i like the mods more then the normal users and that feels kind of weird
There are potential Meta threads that I have prepared lengthy replies for (with diagrams and everything to explain my arguments) but I don’t want to start the threads myself. I’m just waiting for the next time relevant drama happens and someone else makes the thread.
I live in a nigh-on constant state of terror. I’m terrified that I’m wasting my life. That despite all the effort I’ve put in to finally get myself back on my feet, it’ll all fall out from under me again through no fault of my own. I’m terrified that I’m not going to amount to anything. That I’m wasting my time going back to school and that I’m doomed to some sort of drudge job until I finally die. I’m terrified that it might be too late to change anything. That I’m down to the wire. That I don’t have the time, or the money, or the connections to change things. I’m terrified that no matter what, I’m doomed to fail.
I said this above, but I’ll say it again: the prospect of failing should never prevent you from trying. You try and maybe win, or you fail for sure. You can either be terrified of the uncertainty of success, or be comforted by the guarantee of failure. The comfort of failure is really just the numbness of stagnation, which is never good and never desirable.
You speak a lot about waste, but not doing anything that you’re doing (studying, getting yourself back on your feet, finding yourself a job) would be the greater waste. You have been given a life, so what can be more wasteful than to do nothing with it? Everything that you are doing right now is the opposite of wasting away, whether it works out or not. Choosing to fit your ass on the chair or the couch instead of your feet into shoes to go outside is you choosing not to waste.
Everything can fail, but that is why we can try. If everything was guaranteed, then why would we do anything? Recognize your terror is energy against stagnation, and use it as such. Feel grateful that you’re not content with letting yourself go, as it is evident you want to become something. You have an edge over a lot of other people, which is that you want to be better. Pursue this.
I wish people here would get over themselves and their fears about being seen as cringe or whatever and be more supportive about non-NSFW projects. Anything is something but we don’t get anything.
I agree 100%. The Internet treats passion as cringe and nonchalance as based. This is wrong, counter this. Be passionate and know that whoever criticizes you for this is cold and soulless.
I waffle on about how I’m against AI, how drawing is this soulful, human thing. I preach like it matters. Then I end up like this… Drawing fucking sucks. I’ve been grinding for years and still barely get the basics.
One day I think I’ve got it, then I fall apart for weeks. Eyes off, features warped, nothing works. I hit myself because I feel too dumb to learn. I ignore fundamentals, skip measuring, toss out advice like I know better. I don’t. I forget everything I learn.
I thought I had the far eye down, now I can’t even place it without wrecking the head.
I hate how I act, how I learn nothing, how I stall. I tell myself to quit. No one needs my art. It’s not helping my sanity. But even at my lowest, I can’t stop. I want to draw. I want to be better. I just don’t know how to stop hating myself in the process.
We are our worst critics. It is normal, and to a point even healthy, to be perpetually disappointed in our work. It is always good to strive for greatness. Imagine for a moment if you somehow became perfectly content with how you drew a few years ago… would you have kept progressing? Would you have researched more ways to draw? Or would you have remained in that state and place forever, never improving?
Know first that you’ll likely never be satisfied. A decade from now, you’ll be a hundred times better and you’ll still think that you can do better. Use this as your catalyst to try to do better. Never accept anything less but progress. Even if it’s slow, even if you have setbacks, even if you forget what you’ve learned, even if you think you actually got worse. If you stop, you fail. Then do not stop, and you will be better.
WAYT fucking sucks
its just people either going uwu im such a smol bean or misery posting
you cant criticise it or you get dogpiled
I mean, it’s what are you thinking. Not all of our thoughts are good. This morning before church I spent a good 5 minutes thinking about how it would feel if I was a branch of celery. That’s basically both being a smol bean and also misery posting because being celery must suck. If you criticize me for it though I think you’d be wasting your time :v:
I use Arch BTW. And everyone should move to Linux since Win 11’s getting worse now. Or if you want to be a cattle, and go to Win 11 where they’ll surveillance you, then by all means do want you want to do. I’m not gonna stop you. I know it’s a cunt thing to say, but I had to be said.
I love Linux. I contribute to the Void Linux project and I’m a serious advocate of its use… but I would only recommend it to nerds and other people who see the computer as a problem to solve instead of a problem solver. I do hope, however, that Windows 11’s bullshit is what compels people to make the switch, for once and for all.
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Found this new hentai artist, he made a fuckin’ banging doujin. But then had a mental breakdown after and said he’s never doing porn again, deleted his old works. Said that drawing porn effected his mental state. Understandable, but I miss the PORN
I’m really into furry pornahgrafay to the point when I had a girlfriend I just couldn’t stay hard. Probably also has to do with other stuff but I also determined that I’m aro so that might also be a cause. We broke up but we’re still friends. God I can’t understand romance properly
I can’t tell if I have genital warts or not. There’s a lump that looks like one that’s on the underside of my scrotum in the folds between my balls. It definitely wasn’t there when I was younger. It hasn’t changed colors or size and hasn’t spread anywhere in over a year and I’ve never had sex with anyone, so unless someone rubbed their nuts on one of the seats at the gym I’m confused on what it is.
anon confession wrt pedos in the community got me thinking; not enough scrutiny or self-crit towards porn consumption in the community tbh. we have a lot of users i’d never want to be in the same room with
im sure 99% of the community has jerked off to loli at some point in their lives. fetishes that stem from online pornography are almost always untenable in real life relationships.
i think of users who profess to being asexual due to being exclusively into a furry species, or others who have exported much of their daily social needs to virtual reality video games where people appear as fantasy sex monsters or little girls with jiggle physics tits
at some point your contentedness with this will cease and you’ll grow more extreme. it’s how paraphilias work, but how do you get more extreme than what we’re already seeing? leads to either deep depression or depraved shit like abdl
I don’t have a high view of pornography so I’m biased here, even though I am not judgemental of those who are heavily into it. I would agree with you, but in my opinion, the problem can be chalked to a poor separation between NSFW and non-NSFW concerns. Most of the people you think of are not like this outwardly in IRL situations, you wouldn’t even be aware of their NSFW interests. Like most people, they reserve that for “after dark” discussion and bedroom stuff. However, on Knockout, the content cohabit and it can create the impression that there is no or very little distinction between people’s sexual expression and their regular expression.
The way I’d see this resolved is to create a separate section for NSFW threads instead of having NSFW threads co-listed with regular threads, even if the former are by default hidden with the NSFW filter. This would more easily distinguish between the NSFW side of people and their regular side. Otherwise, I don’t really have an opinion or any knowledge on whether “paraphillias” grow worse or turning into depression or whatnot. There has been, however, a noted increase in NSFW confessions, but then again this is the Internet :v:
I think it’s cool when friends jerk off together
Harry Johnson again, thanks for the advice.
I mentioned waxing because shaving risks cuts and stubble, yoinking out hair with tweezers risks in-grown hairs, infections, and hair bifurcation. I can deal with that on my face but Mini Me is more sensitive. I guess waxing could still cause that issue. Up until now I’ve just trimmed everything with scissors, which is risky in itself already. You’d think they’d have a dongle-safe depilatory cream at this point.
This is another NSFW one, sorry.
I’ve thought about participating in a few of the NSFW art threads, because I do have some content I’d like to share, but it unfortunately involves a kink I don’t think people would very much appreciate, plus I myself have some slight hangups on NSFW content (ace moment)
I have a long-running fear of being judged and called out on this community, wish I could get over it, but I keep having setbacks in numerous ways. Shit sucks, yo.
I love fan fiction/smut.
I know what you’re thinking; that’s not that interesting compared to what others might submit. But IRL? It’s the sort of thing you don’t tell anyone about. God forbid people know I’m even more weird than they currently think I am.
For reference, I’m a man in my 30s, and work in the construction industry - so as you can imagine, it’s a load of old, rough and tumble ‘blokes’, who would rip the piss out of me if they ever found out. My closest and best friends also have no idea.
Arcane was what got me into it. I love Arcane and I’m absolutely feral for Violyn ships (CaitVi is a shit name for them and I don’t care what anyone says), and I’ve been reading them relentlessly for the past ~8 or so months since I first discovered AO3.
Strangely, I discovered recently that a friend also reads AO3 while we were out drinking. So now I have a friend to nerd out with about fanfic (and so does she), and it’s our dirty little secret. We’re both ecstatic about it.
I identify as asexual, the thought of having any form of sexual intercourse fills me with absolute disgust.
At the sametime I’ve got such a weirdly niche, specific kink. It’s not even gross or disgusting it’s just odd and weirdly specific. It does make me horny but I don’t even want sex or sexual gratification, I just want to indulge in it specifically.
It does make me feel weird and lonely as I’ve never met a single other person who feels that exact way, either they’re ace but don’t have this kink, or rarely they do but they’re interested in the sex aspect of it.
It does rule out any form of relationship, as they would need to be ace and have this kink for me to be in any way comfortable with it.
You should think about whether having this kink is good considering how high the bar has been set due to it. It could be a good or a bad thing, but it’s definitely worth considering from this angle. Is indulging in my kink worth the added difficulty of getting into a relationship?
I find myself more and more getting into watching voyeur videos. I’d never record anything myself, and I don’t creep on strangers, but there’s something about watching when there’s no acting and no money involved that just…hnnng. Yeah, there’s a person being recorded without their knowledge or consent, definitely not good. I know I shouldn’t watch it, but there are certain camera angles that nobody does in 99% of the stuff you’d be able to find on the internet. If it does exist, it’s extremely rare and hard to find because it’s too specific and you have to wade through mountains of shit to find it and then it’s extremely brief and obviously acted. To be clear, I’m not trying to justify it, just give my reasoning. I’d rather live without it.
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Knockout is the gaming forum where some games are banned. Lifestyle community but everyone just talks about trans shit or western politics. The politics of which you cannot escape, but are never more than run-of-the-mill reactionary-coded liberal decorum worship.
No one talks about games. Political discussion is filled with culture war obsessed smooth brains. Moderators also suck and are kind of weird, and there’s a weird entitlement from the forum users to scrutinize absolutely everything about the administration as if that’s not annoying as all sin.
Rules should be 6-7 easy common sense rules that are enforced evenly, and hurt feelings shouldn’t be considered when bans are handed out. Bans are for rule violations only and not rowdy debates or bad vibes.
And the series of e-begging threads is going to create a sense of codependency and eventually someone will get shafted when pockets dry up. Cut that shit down too sooner than later.
I agree with you over the immense scrutiny applied to the administration. IMO, I’ve always thought the moderators did a good job and individual bans turning into drama always disappoint. There was only one ban that made me raise an eyebrow and post a comment but I didn’t see it as indicative of anything more but a one-off error. People expect a level of institutional accountability from this website’s administration and I find it crazy. I’ve never found it wrong to be strongly curating of the content and users posted and posting in here.
I also agree a bit with the way donation threads are handled. I do think there should be a way for people to help each-other here, and maybe things like donation requests and such should be collected in a more regular and straightforward way, but I do find the uptick in big sticky banners at the top not a promising outlook. Not bad in and of itself bear in mind, if I had to make such a thread I’d appreciate it if it was brought before the eyes of absolutely everybody (and cooperation w/ the site’s administration is rarely a bad thing), but I think it could create problems later down the line if someone requests their help thread to be given an announcement and for some reason they don’t have one. Mods could be accused of favoritism and/or a call for further regulations could happen. It simply needs to be framed better.
As for political discussion, Knockout like Facepunch always had vivid and active news and politics sections. It’s also where I end up doing most of my posts, in fact. Yes, it’s nominally a gaming forum, but TBH I find that’s where it came from, and not what it necessarily is today. I find it normal that a lot of the site has incorporated a background layer of politics, for better or for worse. However, I’ve found that it’s still very possible and regular to have non-political discussion. I’ve made a lot of non-political posts, but it’s inevitable to enter politics here at some point. I even find it fun sometimes. As for the trans part, it’s what I said above. Knockout has become a queer community as well, and I believe it should restyle itself as such in description, even if I myself don’t really care for it nor concerned by it since I’m not queer. That may adjust expectations while also being overtly indicative of Knockout trying to be welcoming to queer people.
I find it gas someone complained about suggestive avatars yet again in this system. I can guarantee you that does not extend the user who goes around with two porn memes as both their avatar and background. Surprise, surprise, that user has been one of those to publicly complain about inappropriate avatars/backgrounds, ironic I know. And then there’s the one user I know of who spent about the first two or so years posting with a slightly obscure neo nazi as their profile picture, never got banned for it, but at least had the decency to change it. I do not feel comfortable knowing that a nazi like that is a regular poster on this site. Can’t do shit about it because I never reported it or screenshot it at the time. Thankfully someone else gave them shit for it in an older Confessional thread.
that dude with the black latino wife is d
gonna see her get MAGAs run a train on her lmfao
I put this in negative cuz I don’t know if they’re referring to someone in here. Could potentially be inflammatory :v:
You have avatars/backgrounds that look like cropped porn, softcore porn, cropped oddly specifically, and Deviantart fetish art. Not to mention any titles.
Maybe the reason this keeps cropping up isn’t just trolling, but because people prefer to get upset, throw around buzz words and call people prudes, and they’re popular enough or long time enough members that mods naturally side with them. Maybe some introspection and social awareness is the answer and not getting upset because someone doesn’t take a post from ‘suddenly twilight sparkle bedroom eyes’ seriously.
People can say “Just turn them off!” but why should I have to limit my experience so harshly because something isn’t held to a reasonable SFW standard? Besides it’s from an extension, not even native to the site. We still don’t even have a block feature that was suppose to be at least mentioned months ago, that would arguably help a lot when users just can’t help but passively air out their kinks.
I don’t necessarily disagree with you. There should be a user-specific feature to turn some avatars or banners off, at least IMO. However, I’m putting it into negative because I don’t want to become the intermediary for what could be an inflammatory discussion.
I have also used ublock to just flat-out hide the avatars and/or backgrounds of some users on this site. I agree with the other person that some people here take sex positivity way, WAY too far. I do not want to see some furry/animal girl with unrealistically thick proportions wearing skintight or overly revealing clothing with shiny-ass skin and so on when I browse this forum. If I did, I would specifically seek out such content.
I understand if you want to use a character like that to portray yourself online, but come on. You can do that without having what is essentially an overly lewd pin-up magazine spread on the side of your post on a public forum.
The fact that this opinion needs to be expressed anonymously, because otherwise I would be branded an irredeemable asshole or banned entirely, is also a disgrace but that’s another topic entirely…
IMHO, I don’t think you have to express that opinion anonymously. I myself think some avatars are pretty exaggerated. I don’t feel bad because of it, but I think it goes against Knockout’s principle of having a pretty delineated distinction between the NSFW portion of the site and the non-NSFW portion of the site.
In the end, it’s always a matter of wording and nuance too. You can constructively approach pretty much anything.
I’ve been consistently right about which high profile members were going to delete their account over some trivial shit. This community courts so many deeply mentally ill people who blow tf up at the drop of a hat. They get muted for a few days and it’s the end of the world. They call every moderator is a fascist, they should be allowed to break to rules because they’re right. These personalities are not hard to identify, they’re going to be the death KO. We’ve scared away so many good users by accommodating others who make their problems everyone else’s. We treat every grievance as valid. The mods are so scared of backlash they feel like they need to find a rule that’s being broken to perm a known shit-stirrer. This community is just unappealing to healthy people, I give 2 more years before it’s just the same 2 dozen users lying to each other about how KO is thriving, and talking about their own smells. FYI, none of this has to do with KO being a queer safe space, that part is great.
I agree that moderators should be more “curative” of what gets posted on the site, and not care as much for what comes next. We had a talk related to this when someone talked of transparency and whatnot and I disagreed with pretty much every measure proposed. That said, I disagree over whether it’s going to kill Knockout because some people absolutely thrive in these conditions and it may attract even more strongly opinionated people, for better or for worse. I don’t think it’s all due to mental illness but maybe a more sensitive online upbringing.
